Fragment #14 - I’m here

My head is going to implode. I know it. I’m so tired not to be tired. It’s about 3 in the morning and I can’t sleep. I go to the window, then back to the sofa, then up again and to the bedroom… I can’t stand it anymore. It’s been one full day now. Why is it taking them so long to decide of my future? Cameron can not help me today, neither can Paul or Bob. No, definitively not Bob. Paul… Paul has got a girlfriend now, so obviously, he has other things to do and to think about. Sasha can not help me either. She doesn’t understand how important all that is.
I go back to my aimless and endless walk. Then, I hear my phone’s ringtone. A text message, from Steve: Stop wandering. You’ll be fine, as always. I’m here. Take care, S xxx.
I sit on the sofa, my phone in my hand, reading over and over and over again those few words.
I’m here. Are you, really?

I’m not moving anymore. I grab the remote control and press play. Paolo Nutini, please, help me!